reflection and imagaination

This post you are reading now was initially a total 250 degrees different. It was at first my ramblings, then now filling it with my reflection.
This Last (It is twelve am on Monday) whole week have been sucking me in like a whirlpool. Now I am at the end of my roller coaster ride, it has stopped. Normally, when people compare roller coaster rides to life, they talk about ups and downs, I will be talking about the end. What do you do at the end of a roller coaster ride? Maybe you would think, ”Wow, that was great! I love especially the descending part, my heart nearly jumped out then! Let’s go again!”

Like roller coaster rides, normally at the end, you can only vaguely remember the start of the descending portion, that one second. We would not start analysing, ”Oh, the first two seconds,…, the fifth second, when it dropped,….” That would take the excitement out of the next ride.

Ironically, this is what I am doing now, reflecting on my ride this week. I remember the times when I was distracted, worrying, irritated, shouting, doing all sorts of embarrassing and childish things- all in one week. Thinking what can I do now to resolve the embarrassment caused by my childish acts, things that is making me scared to face everyone there then again. (‘embarrassment’ continued in the later part)

This then led me to thinking about how many a times this year I found myself realising that I am irritated by my own childish actions and gestures. Then at those times, I only had one answer- I want to get myself back, but I cannot stop or change it, I do not know what to do.

Life has a cycle, one that keeps repeating itself in life – You learn, you grow, you drop back to ground zero without realising that much, you reflect and hate yourself for being so childish when you thought you have grown out of those actions, you reflect again, you learn, you grow… all over again. Thinking about it, the reflecting times just make us realise how much we have to improve, how much we have to go to start again if it were to be the case. You can learn, grow and mature, but when situation get better of you, you go back to ground zero… then we must start reflecting again… cause if you don’t you will still be stuck at ground zero. Actually each ground zero is always a bit higher than the previous one, you just realise more, and understands more of yourself. ”Ah! The wonder of reflection”, since we are already doing that many times a day, just continue reflecting, learning, and enjoy growing up.

Embarrassment, is part of our perspective, the fear inside us, or concerns about others’ opinions. If we were to not bother about others’ opinions, we wouldn’t feel that embarrassed. So one of the solutions I have for myself now is to just start anew, do not think so much about what happened, move ahead, move along. =D Also, it is time to find back my disturbed peaceful state of my mind.

In the small part of my quest to find my state of peacefulness, I was linked to something magical – imagination. Ever stood in the shower and start singing, ”I’m singing, I’m dancing in the rain…”? Ever closed your eyes and start twirling about and dancing, in different styles and genres (with your eyes still closed)?
Ever tried finding peace within your own world? Closing your eyes, finding yourselves in a serene state of mind (Ah, what is in my mind now is a scene of that being protrayed in a movie, by the way this is also part of my imagination.) In case you cannot get my explanation, start your own wonderful world of imagination now! Like what it is mentioned in ‘The Old Boy’, it is the imagination….

To end, I have finally watched ‘Ratatouille’! Yes, after a good long time. Animation is like magic, that why I love watching them. Films are like life coaches, or friends, it relates as well as animation. Both contains great power to relate, both can be fictional, but one more fantasied, and explore higher magic, another relates, touches people as if they were watching another person’s real life, you feel it literally. Both as great, awesome and magical! So cheers to visual form of communication! (*Cough) Sorry, went a little out of topic, anyway Rat-ta-tou-ee was totally awesome.

”Anyone can cook”, ”Not everyone can be great artists, but great artists can be from anywhere.” – Ratatouille, 2007

Remy is cute. (Hey, the version I watched did not have the part which ‘he’ was dancing with the carrot!) Dream big.